Rebuilding Strength and Finding Resilience

In the previous post, I shared how I made the decision to prioritize my health over my job, leading to a new chapter of healing and transformation.

As we recovered from the shock of shingles in my eye, the attention returned to my colon and gut. I had been slowly withering away and getting weaker and weaker. We got blood work done and found that my blood volume was less than half of what it should have been and with the extremely high heart rate, weak pulse and blood pressure, we decided it was time to venture out and head to the ER. It didn’t take long in the ER to be admitted, I was so weak I could barely walk for myself and I was beginning to lose hope and regret the prayer I had prayed for total healing and transformation.

Once We had been admitted into the hospital, I immediately had a colonoscopy so the doctors could discover just how inflamed my gut had become and according to them, I was off the charts inflamed. My colon was ravaged, my body was ravaged, and in desperate need of help. I quickly began all kinds of treatments, from biologics to potent antivirals, pain meds, and even blood transfusions in order to get my body out of this dire state. I would end up spending 9 days in the hospital with only my wife as the COVID restrictions in the hospitals wouldn’t allow any more visits, including my family or friends.

It was there in that hospital bed, I totally broke, completely. See, I had been attempting to heal my body through natural means, and while much of it had been helpful and successful, for whatever reason, the prognosis from the doctors indicated that I would need to use conventional therapies if I wanted to keep my colon and recover. I had been very stubborn about not wanting to take any drugs to heal, fearing their side effects and being dependent on them for the entirety of my life. But I was so broken, so hopeless, so fearful, I relented. I laid in my hospital bed, sobbing to God, WHY? Until I ran out of any more energy to be angry, and gave up control. I remember telling Him, OK, I’ll do it your way, you want me to take these biologics and medications, ok, I’ll do it. My life is in your hands now, and if this is part of your healing journey for me, I accept it. Days later, my strength began to return, some of the medications began to work, others not so much, but I was at least out of the crisis enough to return home.

If you're facing uncertainty or setbacks in your own journey, remember that every obstacle is an opportunity for growth. Reach out to me for support and guidance as you navigate the challenges ahead.

Be well,

William Malcolm

IntuitiveWellnessNow