Navigating the Chaos of Healing

In the previous post, I shared how my healing journey began amidst the chaos of the pandemic. Despite facing unexpected challenges, I remained committed to my path to healing and transformation.

The first 6 months of my healing and transformative journey were chaotic, to say the least. I had enlisted a man to guide me through healing my colon, my thyroid, and to teach me to adopt a lifestyle and a mindset of balance. I took a major financial risk to get the best guidance I could find. What I came to learn is this: when it comes to healing, we have to go through a deconstruction of the old before the reconstruction of the new can begin. Also, when you accept a transformative healing journey such as the one I had asked God for, understand that you are venturing into the unknown. And 3 months into the process, I was blindsided by the pandemic. What’s so odd and confusing is that the pandemic played a massive role in my healing and transformation story. It bought me time to be at home to go through this deconstruction process. I know the pandemic was catastrophic for many around the world, but it was a gift from God for me.

As my body began the deconstruction process, I saw my body degrade. Just 6 months prior, I had been running in the mountains of Utah, even racing a short vertical mountain race where I had run my fastest downhill mile ever! Now, here I am, bleeding, shriveling, and beginning to wonder what did I get myself into this time?

I continued to work with the expert guidance I had hired for an entirety of 6 months, coming very close to my colon healing and regaining the 40 lb of weight I had lost, only to go in for a colonoscopy, and have the doctor running the procedure rough up my colon and reactivate the inflammatory process again. I was bitter, I was resentful, my heart hardened against him and God. Why!? Why is this happening to me? I was supposed to be done healing in 6 months. Little did I know the journey that lay ahead of me would last another 3 and a half years.

If you're feeling overwhelmed by challenges or setbacks on your own healing journey, know that it's okay to ask for help. Reach out to a trusted friend, family member, or healthcare professional for support and guidance.

Be well,

William Malcolm

IntuitiveWellnessNow